It's funny,
both hilarious and odd.

I remember my friend, this guy who happens to have the same name as me, he told me to "lurk more," which I did.
After a while of boredom, which lead to the lurking, I was scouring the vast swamp that is the internet.
My finds were, at the beginning, below par with results like, new episode of the series I am watching, friend requests on sites I never check and things that can't be unseen.
After a while though, I stumbled upon something, a web page with text written by some person.
It took me a while to skim through it, I hate reading, and turns out I am mentioned in it.
Horrible things were said about me, wait no, in fact great things were said about me, regarding things I did not actually acknowledge that I did.
As for the matter of perception, the person described in the text did not match how I see myself.
I discovered something that has already been discovered.
Really with that said this seems pointless but let's continue.
You see boys and girls, people compliment you for a reason.
Some(probably your family) do it to boost yourself esteem,
others(probably some salesman) do it to get something from you,
but your friends, those who truly care about you, compliment you and mean it.

My pointless point is: I am a person who thinks lowly of himself, but upon the realization from two seconds ago I have come to the conclusion that I am better than how I think of myself.

So many times I saw the girl I care about fall to the side.
It was my fault, I allowed her to go, ignoring and dismissing every chance I had.
Why did I do that you ask?
Well, I was afraid, I was worried, I thought I was not good enough.
Really I did not mind, who am I kidding, I was terribly jealous to see her with other guys.
Though, I let it pass because of the smile she had, she seemed so happy, all I want is for her to be happy.
Sure, seeing her smile makes me happy as well but we all know I would be a lot happier with her.
Realizing now, my cowardice was unjustified, I am good enough if not better.

Really by not telling the ones we care about our feelings we are letting them down.
Maybe you are scared like me but I am sure if you truly care about someone then you know them well enough to make them happy.

Funny,
this time odd because I realize all this when I do not exactly have an opportunity but then again, another opportunity will come, and then I will just have to see if my words affect me enough to express myself.

I know of course that she would not necessarily feel the same, I understand, but with a possibly small chance that could make me ultimately happy, I should take it.
She may reject me, even so, if the person is as beautiful in personality as you think they are then they will still be there for you, maybe not the way you want, but still be a true friend.
If the person is not as beautiful in personality and forgets the fact they even know you then you will finally be able to see them from a side that you can tell their beauty is a lie.
You may be devastated, but that feeling that is felt is the light being shined on your situation, think of it as you being cleansed, resembling kind of a stinging taste of garlic or an onion that will cleanse your body.
It stings but it is good for you.

I guess what I am trying to tell you is that you are an amazing person.
Do not ever let anyone say otherwise.
For the guy who she left: She never deserved you.
For the girl who does not believe she is pretty: You are right, you are not, you are actually beautiful.

Funny,
this time hilarious because she will probably never read this, but, I love you.

<3